Thursday, July 30, 2009
Good day, sorry this picture is a little fuzzy. I wanted to show it as it was taken at the farm in June when we were all home for the funeral. It is hard to imagine that 2 months have passed by so quickly. Dad used to sit and watch all the birds, they of course got way more than I ever had...I guess the woes of living in a city. I loved to sit in the veranda with him and watch. They are so tiny, so beautiful, and intensly fast. Sometimes there would be about 5 or 6 and you would see them dive at one another. I can not tell you how many times over the years that we have watched the birds together....Today I just felt lost, I miss him so bad. I wonder how long it will take to not expect him to come around the corner, or how long it will take to forget his last few hours. Today I just felt sick because I can't remember how he smelt...This is ridiculous, because every year at Christmas he would get cologne, and he would always laugh that we all must think he stinks! We would all laugh together. In hindsight how many bottles of Old Spice should one man have. It is funny but as I was writing this I remembered...Old Spice! And a part of me feels a little better. "Memory is the treasury and guardian of all things!" by Cicero. For now he stays with me! Right now, for now anyway, I am once again okay.