It is funny how when reading others blogs , suddenly you can be thinking of the same thing.
You may want to have a visit with Char over at Ramblins, It is on my Blog list.
These are the thoughts she triggered.
At seventeen I remember going to a doctor and was told I would never have children.
Quite devastating even for a girl of seventeen who had not even thought about having kids,
I remember walking through the parking lot walking to the car and I was informing my Mom,
that how could they possibly know that, that it was not in their hands to decide, that only God knew for sure!
I just remember being furious, that this just sucked.
I never really talked about it, just if it ever came up, oh no I had never wanted kids!
Oh no I was too cool for kids! Yes you read that right!
I was married, he had a daughter before that he never saw,
And in all reality he could have cared less!
We did try fertility drugs, that became too hard filled by disapointment time and again.
So for other reasons we divorced and I was thankful I did not have children!
This way I had a clean brake and no ties to him.
I married again ten years later, this time to a man that was eleven years older than me!
We discussed children and we both felt by this time we were too old and set in our ways and our lifestyle.
Three years later I got sick, and now I was thankful because I did not know how I could have taken care of a child, when I was having so much difficulty taking care of me.
So life has a way of working out, for reasons sometimes we never know!
I am grateful to my two sisters that enabled me to be a big part in their childrens lifes!
I am grateful for when my niece and newphew came and told me that their Mom would have a baby for me.
I guess they had a family meeting, and it was so matter of fact that this would be!
I was so surpriseed how there little minds worked, but they wanted Aunt Cindy to be happy!
And these two little gaffers are my little kids anyway,
even though they are all grown up.
My other sister has two boys,
And she would often phone for me to talk to,
Because for some strange reason they would listen to me!
They would draw on the sheets and blame me,
What these four children did was work their way into my heart,
I can not imagine that I would have loved my own children more than them.
I also have a godchild and I got to be a part of her birth,
It was amazing, scary and loud!
And now there is a place for her in my heart.
There are also nieces and newphews on my husbands side, most were full grown when I became a part of the family!
There is room for them as well,
For the lovely three children that at one time lived next door,
And were here as often as they could!
Bless their little souls, they just needed someone to love them,
To have someone to hug and play and praise them!
And I know there will be room for anymore that venture this way.
My younger sister says, it takes more than parents to raise a child,
It takes a whole village!
How truly grateful and blessed I am!